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This Sunday marks our 1st anniversary as husband and wife (well... it is the anniversary of the celebratory picnic.. the actual registration was done in May)

There's not going to be a big celebration.. just a quiet weekend with the rabbits and Bronx. Also, a little trip to Horsham to spend time with our favourite children and family in the UK. = )

Bronx will also be coming with us to Horsham so he'll probably need a bath on Friday. :P

J is going to be very excited to see Bronx.. I'm just hoping he will not run L and M down with them being shorter than him.

It is nice to have people who are like family when you are in another land.. it makes us feel complete.

I used to think it is weird to be married so early on in life but now we have both gotten so used to it it feels like we've been married forever.

It is nice to be able to plan for the future.. how we want our garden to look.. what we want to do with our careers.. when we want to have our children.

Talking about children.. it feels so strange to hear news about friends getting pregnant.

I mean.. 24 and a mother?

My mum had me when she was 24 and to be very honest.. I think she was quite overwhelmed. She certainly seemed to enjoy my brother more as she was a lot more confident about being a mother.

With me she was always like an older sister. We both learnt how to sew together (today I can sew, she still can't) and when we got a free durian from a neighbour we both figured how to open it together

I really enjoyed those times with her, the simple life.

I just don't know if I want to be a mother at 24.

Afterall I am going back to school soon.. I want to have a career.. I want to drive around Europe with the husband and the dog..

Well then.. what's the problem you ask?

The problem is.. sometimes.. we get a little bit broody..

We think.. oh.. wouldn't it be nice to see little Poppy running around the house.. playing with Bronx and teasing the rabbits.

Wouldn't it be sweet to see her tiny pair of shoes amongst ours on the shoe rack..

Hmm..

We love children.. We love M and L.. T and J and my brother.. I guess we just don't know if we want one in our house full time..

The husband being a man has more other problems to dwell about.

Whenever we think about it he'll say.. oh.. we don't have the finances to take care of her.. oh.. we don't have the space to have her..

Which is all obviously true.

It is just particularly hard when it is that time of the month and your hormones are telling you you DO want to be a mother but your head says NO! Not now!

Haha.. maybe in 5 years.. maybe we'll be able to fit her into our busy schedule and everything we want to do.. At least I'm only thinking of 5, the adult M have suggested 10!